Running from Whispers (of doubt)

Prior to becoming a mom in 2016 I never would have identified as a runner. I began this journey in my postpartum and very casually ran until 2024 when I decided to fully dedicate to a structure training plan and set a big race goal. I started with a half marathon and then committed to do the whole damn thing.

I never in my wildest dreams imagined I would run 26.2 miles and be a marathoner, especially a participant in a world's major event. I signed up to do this for myself; to challenge what I felt I was capable of but also to show my son it is ok to work hard at something you "aren't good at" and be proud of improvement, satisfaction in the discomfort of doing something new, finding joy in the process of becoming better.

The training block taught me so much about myself. To sit with those whispers of not belonging or being good enough. I learned to laugh at my hard days. Smile at the good ones. Cry when it felt right. At some point in the 18 week process I stopped comparing myself and just learned to enjoy it.

Now did race day go how I wanted? Absolutely not. Did I spend a few days after really beating myself up over not being "good enough", yes. After working through the emotions, and I digested the training flaws and areas to improve...I also immediately signed up for my next half and applied for the lotto for the 2026 Chicago Marathon.

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